We all might be masochists enjoying being pathetic to some extent.... But it's just to some extent! Why don't people understand there is no joy when it is so scary and dark? Why don't they stop judging you? Why don't they stop saying that you are enjoying your situation and all depends on you and you need to positive and blah blah blah?  Or at least why don't they hold their tongue and stop expressing whatever comes into their minds? 
They make me feel even lonelier....