Sine waves! Sometimes everything in my life stops and there is a deadening silence. And right after that I have everything happening at the same time. I used to find the second phase as scary as the first one. But my fear never stopped them from happening. 
Am I scared now? Not yet. Theses days I keep surprising myself. I clearly see the changes in me. I feel calm... like a moonlit night. 

I think I've given up waiting. And I find myself avoiding anything that reminds me of you.